PMA

Those three letters. “Positive Mental Attitude.” Seems like it is something so easy to obtain. Yet here we are, grumpy and groggy heading to work or school, and keeping the positivity is so quickly lost. What is your automatic reaction if someone cuts you off while you are in a rush somewhere? Or if, God forbid, you drop your coffee immediately after purchase. Suddenly you feel your temperature rising and the anger ignites. Moments like these have the power to completely sour your mood for the remainder of the day, and when you really start to think about that, it’s fairly scary.
The expression “I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.” Is very real. But what starts to happen if we take a few moments to think positive and find the good in all situations? Yes you were cut off, but so much worse could have happened, and you are still going to get where you are headed regardless. And trust me when I say coffee is an essential to my day to day life, And when you finally get that first sip it is glorious. It really is a devastating feeling if you drop it and don’t get to enjoy the caffeine you went out of your way to stop and purchase that morning, But what happens if the clerk sees this happen and offers to make you a new drink free of charge? Or yes, it may not be the fancy new Macchiato on the block, but there is still a pot of hot coffee waiting for you once you get to where you are headed.
Life is tough. We face new struggles every single day and that is never going to change. It is part of the beauty of being alive. We have obstacles put in our way to make us stronger as human beings all around. It is how we behave when we face these challenges that makes all the difference. We are faced with a choice, To back down and let the problem win, ruin the rest of the day for us and cause us to check out and miss the beauty life has to offer. Or, we can choose to understand that these things will happen, there is a lesson to be learned in every situation, and to keep on smiling because that alone could change the course of another’s day for the better.

I’m still Pressing On

So I was listening to a Reliant K song I used to love back in the day and it definitely hit me right in the feels. It’s called “Pressing On” and is just about continuing to move forward, even when you’ve been through some terrible hardships. This week has been a bit of an extra tough one too. It’s like it comes in waves. Breakups hurt. And people start to find out the truth after its all over and that’s what is starting to happen to me now. I never thought I would be hurt as badly as I was by someone who claimed to love me and take care of me. 

The hardest lesson to learn for me has been that you can’t rely on anyone to help you but yourself. As much as I wanted to believe that this person had my back 100% of the way, it was the wrong way to think. And in the end was one of my biggest downfalls. I have a loving heart, which means I have the disadvantage of trusting everyone until they give me a reason not to anymore. However a relationship without trust is doomed from the beginning. Yet he was the one who wasn’t trusting. Maybe it was because he knew what HE was capable of, so he couldn’t accept that there was someone who would have given him the moon if she could. 

What matters more than anything else though is that IM STILL HERE.  I am moving forward every single day, and the pain is beginning to dull. I also get to experience what it’s like to love myself more than anyone else now. It’s something we all lose sight of, but it’s so important!!! I make myself say why I have value, and I never let myself think otherwise. So while something was meant to ruin me. At one point I was told to run away back home, but here I am. Here I stand, and I’m PRESSING ON. 

What I’ve learned

It has definitely been a while since I have sat down to write a blog entry and my life has had some crazy things happen in the last month. Some of it really put me through some very challenging life tests but in the end I am so much stronger. Here is what I’ve learned……1. You can’t depend on anyone truly but yourself: probably the hardest lesson I had to learn. I had put a ton of faith into someone who was supposed to be my biggest support system. And that failed. Miserably. I felt like I was left face down on the ground with no one there to help me up. Thankfully though I do have true friends who were right there to help me get back on my feet and realize I don’t need anyone else in my life to depend on but myself 

2. Know who your real friends are: going along with having some really amazing people in my life there to support me, unfortunately there were some also who were never really my friends and didn’t have good intentions when it came to my well being. This is by far one of the toughest lessons to learn in life, no matter how many times it happens to you. All I can do is cherish the good times I did have, and know what to look for when choosing who I put my trust into the next time. 

3. Never change who you are for ANYONE!!: you are a beautiful and amazing person just the way you are. All of your quirks and nuisances are what make you unique and different from the norm. DONT SACRIFICE YOU TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY!!! I changed everything in hopes that I would be perfect for someone else. In turn I was miserable. I pushed people away, changed my habits, everything. But if you are asked to do that, you aren’t ever truly loved. And that person doesn’t deserve you because they are taking away from the sparkle that makes up the amazing human being that you are. 

Life has an amazing way of teaching you things just when you need to learn them. And I really do believe that everything happens for a reason. I am so much stronger than I have ever been and more than anything, for the first time in a long time, I AM HAPPY
If this message upsets you in any way when you read it that was not my intention. I’m just sharing what I’ve learned and some of the things I believe, so that hopefully my experiences can help someone else on their own journey someday. And maybe if you find yourself getting offended, you are the one who needs to take a look in the mirror………..